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Posted by CL

It has been a quiet time for me on the blog, as I was patiently waiting for directions as to what will happen in my life, and the next step i shd take. As requested for prayers, i had hoped to seek God's guidance as to what i have to do, plus whether it is the right thing or not. For many weeks leading to the end of my chambering, i was still at loss as to wat to do, confused as to the directions i have to face, unsure as to whether every step i take is the right one.

as all knows, i've asked for directions, because i do not know whether i am to stay here or to go ovs. if ovs, do i take the practical course, or my masters? if i do my masters, which course? if i do my practical course, wat uni? if i stayed here, will i be retained and wanted by my current firm considering the way i always abscond to the toilet when due diligence is required? will i have to go out and apply for a new job? how do i even start on my resume? if i applied for a new job, do i practice law, or try the corporate sector? work at a bank, or do sth totally different from law, like marketing? am i the only one faced with decisions, decisions, decisions? has God forsaken me, and refused to tell me which path to take?

these were the many questions tat led me to a difficult time, the feeling of not knowing, the mental torture of having to wait....but what have i learnt from all these? God has as usual been faithful...He has taught me to be patient, sth that i've never really been very good at. God has told me that just because i wanted sth immediately, it does not mean that i have to get it at tat time, or i'll die. God has taught me that if it is mine, it will be, no matter how eventual? results? as below.

I was called into my HR"s office bout 2 weeks back, offered a place as an Advocate & Solicitor in the corporate department (A LAWYER!!!! NO JOKE K!!!), even though im sure my absconding must have been very noticeable. i knew i didnt want the job, and therefore, patiently waited again...this time for my ethics results, which will determine when i file my papers at court, when my chambering "graduation" is, and whether i am able to go to australia. Now, the wait is terrible, i asked for everyone's prayers last fri for speedy and favourable delivery of my results...as i bowed my head to pray on Mon that the result will arrive that very day, i waited and checked my hp every 2 mins...no news. i decided to give it my all, called them up after lunch, and lo n behold, "chan leonie? we've JUST received ur results...u've passed. come collect ur cert" HALLELUJAH

Now, holidays about to begin, the only thing on my mind is going on a holiday and never looking back. what do i do? im already planning on going to study at australia nx yr...will my parents agree to me going now, just for a holiday? will they be ok with me going so many times? can i afford it? is it practical? guess wat....Mum asked "when do u plan to go to australia? do u want to go in oct? ur cousin's wedding is in sydney. maybe u can go on my behalf?" HALLELUJAH!!! I MEAN, IS THIS EVEN FOR REAL?? ok...plan plan...

Again, as usual, there is a next step to this...as i went to file my papers, my heart pounded as to when my "graduation" date will be....y? because my cousin's wedding is on the 14th oct...and i absolutely need to graduate before then, if i intend to go to aust for a holiday...prayed? no i didnt..i dared not push my luck, be too greedy and ask God for too many favours...but then? God blessed me this morning again, as i went to file the papers, and was told that my graduation is on the 6th....even though many things may change along the way to the 14th, i may not be able to go, and there may be many things to bring me down, at least i knwo God was there...

Moral of the story? Never stop believeing, always have the faith....i believe things will work out perfectly as usual, just the way it always always has...