14 weeks

14 weeks, that is all I have left.... 14 weeks to venture into a new realm. A realm only those survived the abyss can understand. A darkness so great the black hole became the sun, the source of light that we longed for. Abyss and darkness became a pair, like traffic and weather. Abyss because there is no knowing how long can love plunge our helpless soul into wondering and darkness because there is no knowing of what the future holds. Yet we are so passionate about it, we talked about it and we dreamed about it. Friends are anxious that if I can get a dollar for every time people ask "How is your wedding preparation?", I'll be a millionaire.....6 months ago. Spending every ounce of dollar that I have keeps me awake all night, sweating and panting....screaming... dreading. Oh abyss, why me, why me. Oh darkness in the air... winter will it send. Into obscurity. But a glimpse of joy exist in the heart, a small unflickering light at the end of the tunnel..... a natural design, that is God intended. Surely there is a good ending to all this, surely this is what I want, surely there is not turning back.