An age old question - whose will is that playing in my head?
In Study 37 of "Come Follow Me", it is said that Satan is out there to attack the believers. As followers of Jesus, we may be tempted, attacked, persuaded or convinced to go a different way from what Jesus wants us to.
But how will I know if it's Jesus' will or Satan's plots?
A simple answer I have - read the Bible. The answers to all questions mankind can ever have is in the Word of God. My Marriage Devotional Bible has 1392 pages, so how am I going to find the answer within those pages? It's as the Chinese saying goes - fishing for a needle in the midst of an ocean. Well, that's why we're supposed to read the Bible daily, so that if ever we needed an answer it'll be somewhere there in our mind and soul already.
But I am still searching for my answer. This morning, as I have a difficult decision to make, I flipped open the Bible and landed on page 652. The devotional reading on the particular page is spot-on (as Sean would always say) my confused and troubled mind. But I also remember one of the Sunday worships (if I'm not mistaken, it was Rev. Leow's sermon) which also spot-on the danger of flipping open the Bible and thinking that that would be the answer.
So how? I fear that if I rationalize to decide, I am being controlled by my sinful nature. I am worried if I don't rationalize, I don't know if I am listening to the right voice.
I resort to praying. However, after I said "Amen", there is no voice that says "Go, Plan B is the way I want you to go." I shut my eyes for another 2 minutes or so. All I hear is my own voice interrupted once in a while by random thoughts. Still no answer.
[Paused for 5 minutes and let my mind wandered off.]
During the pause, I was just being reminded that bottom line is, my intention in the decision which I am making or going to make. I think that I have to sort out my intention first before I should start making any decision. The decision could be the same anyways, but the intention would shape who I am, what I do and how I do it. And most importantly, for whom I do it.
A self-answering questioning post by YC on a Friday morning.
In Study 37 of "Come Follow Me", it is said that Satan is out there to attack the believers. As followers of Jesus, we may be tempted, attacked, persuaded or convinced to go a different way from what Jesus wants us to.
But how will I know if it's Jesus' will or Satan's plots?
A simple answer I have - read the Bible. The answers to all questions mankind can ever have is in the Word of God. My Marriage Devotional Bible has 1392 pages, so how am I going to find the answer within those pages? It's as the Chinese saying goes - fishing for a needle in the midst of an ocean. Well, that's why we're supposed to read the Bible daily, so that if ever we needed an answer it'll be somewhere there in our mind and soul already.
But I am still searching for my answer. This morning, as I have a difficult decision to make, I flipped open the Bible and landed on page 652. The devotional reading on the particular page is spot-on (as Sean would always say) my confused and troubled mind. But I also remember one of the Sunday worships (if I'm not mistaken, it was Rev. Leow's sermon) which also spot-on the danger of flipping open the Bible and thinking that that would be the answer.
So how? I fear that if I rationalize to decide, I am being controlled by my sinful nature. I am worried if I don't rationalize, I don't know if I am listening to the right voice.
I resort to praying. However, after I said "Amen", there is no voice that says "Go, Plan B is the way I want you to go." I shut my eyes for another 2 minutes or so. All I hear is my own voice interrupted once in a while by random thoughts. Still no answer.
[Paused for 5 minutes and let my mind wandered off.]
During the pause, I was just being reminded that bottom line is, my intention in the decision which I am making or going to make. I think that I have to sort out my intention first before I should start making any decision. The decision could be the same anyways, but the intention would shape who I am, what I do and how I do it. And most importantly, for whom I do it.
A self-answering questioning post by YC on a Friday morning.
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