Depressing thought

I am feeling depress since a recent camp. The feeling of emptiness and ironic is quite unexplainable. A feeling of a certain motivation being shredded, piece by piece and laid to waste. The haunting sensation of the life that we are living in, the purpose that is set before us in church and our ministry. The reason for everything and the excuse for anything. Meaningless. Total vanity. A man's life is just so small, we breath today in a small part of our world, thinking we are living the life we should, but secretly indulging in the life that we crave, not knowing our capabilities, not daring to explore the huge and vast knowledge that God has created. Venturing into spiritual maturity with our mind but not our body. Hoping that will bring satisfaction to our lives, but the true motives bring forward an eminence presence of hypocrisy. Preaching to us the life that we ought to live but not portraying the same image in theirs. Taking the Word of God only to the extend of preaching and explaining but not into their hearts. Hearts are wicked and defiled. I wonder why is it that man no longer possesses the energy to apply. Has the worries of the world clouded their judgment? Has the instability of the world brings anxiety into their life? Has the demons taken control of their lives?