Sad mother

Hey guys, if you have the time please go to this link and read her article.
http://online.wsj.com/article/SB10001424052748704111504576059713528698754.html

I find it greatly disturbing, and no I am not doing research on how to treat my children. I mean, not only she puts Chinese to shame with this article but her children as well. How can a person wants success in life so much that nothing else matters? If the ultimately goal of life is to be an outstanding pianist? That is not only narrow minded but simple minded. I am concerned going to the place I am going, where I suspect people are like this. How can I bear this kind of life, this kind of disgust, this kind of foul perversion of one's life, a simple soul that was given by God. This is such sad article to read......

Convenient Salvation

What must I do to be saved? That's easy, confess that Jesus Christ is Lord and you have booked your place to heaven.... isn't that convenient. It's just like a magic word, works like a charm. What happen if I ever doubted that, well, pray to God and ask Him to give you strength to resist Satan's voice inside your head!

To me, it is all too simple and all too convenient. We live in a culture now that only requires us to do so little to be saved. We can still go through our lives like nothing ever happened. Treat the culture like our playground and yet still been convicted that we are saved. Why? Because of the magic formula that I said. Now I am saved. What heresy.

Miserable life

Isn't life so miserable? I'm sorry but really it is. Not like I woke up on the wrong side today but it's just so funny, life is plain miserable. Talk about time... what is time? Time is a general cancer for all human being. Time brings you closer to death, time brings agony closer, time dissolves everything, memories, joy, pain, suffering and everything that define us. That is the misery of time. How about people around us? People are full of wants and needs. I want this, I want that, I need this and I need that. All their tainted egos inflict pain on everyone around them. Spit out their character like vermin infecting everyone to be just like them. Life is just so miserable. Time that kills us slowly but surely, and people around us that just inflict pain upon pain, misery upon misery, hence why life is so miserable. Yes we hope on time. We hope that time will brings us success, makes us rich, makes us famous and provide us with a better life. We hope that time will slow down, now that we are still young and not sagging. That time will brings us to our ultimate dream in life. Time is just laughing at these people saying "Ha ha.... it will come to an end and when it does, you will not be prepared for it". Also, we rely on people on so many other things. We rely on them to behave honestly, we rely on them to give us good sales target, we rely on them to keep us from being lonely and we rely on them for happiness. But people, just like time, has their own agenda. A natural agenda to be self inclined. To put whatever things they see fit first and ditching the rest behind, and those who hope on time and people will soon meet vanity, disappointment, plunging into abyss, being remembered no more. Only God is our hope, God is our strength, God is who we can rely on, God will give to us whatever He promises. But time stopped us from approaching God, time tells us we have time to serve Him one day, just not now. People draws us even further. People always brings out the worst in us. Tainting us with guilt that makes us feel inadequate approaching God. It is people who came out with so many perverted things that draws us away from His throne. Oh why this life is so miserable?

wow.....

Wow....sh, for someone who love fried chicken so much, that must be a tough video to watch and ultimately share. Such extreme conditions and one can't help but wonder where is God? But hey let's look at the logic of this situation. The poor can't eat proper food because they don't have work which can provide them with income. They don't have work because - no opportunity? not healthy? lazy? no initiative? or whatever reason you can think of. The others will say, we have money, we should be able to eat and enjoy our food. Isn't that the circle of life? Like an ecosystem of life maybe? But we feel bad for the poor right? We pity the poor? We don't care about those who have money to buy fresh chicken, we only care about those who have to eat what is left.
I was reading a news about this student who complain why he is not given the opportunity to enter into the local university? According to this extremely smart student, he scores 100As for his SPM therefore entitle him to enter into a decent local university. And worst of all, we readers should feel bad for him. This doesn't makes much sense to me. Do you see the poor write the same letter to the newspaper saying " I deserve to eat, my family is hungry, we will die tomorrow if we do not eat, feed us"? No you don't. Food and shelter which are the most basic and fundamental things in life but yet often ignored by us. We live in such good world that we decide to blind our eyes and deafen our ears to their needs. You know what? The poor should be able to write to newspaper stating their needs and the MP should be able to bring their need to the public attention and the people should help them, but instead we decided to waste our limited resources on people who thinks they deserve something in life. My idea is this, why should we entertain people who thinks he/she deserve something in life and bring it up to the public so we can stupidly fulfill their self-centeredness and ignore those who is dying because of hunger. I think all the poor, hungry should instead be given the opportunity to eat and to study. Those extremely smart should give up their place in local university to the poor so we can break this cycle of poverty. I am sure they will be able to live a good life without local university. Can anyone doubt that?

A blog or a diary?

That is a question I want to answer... but unfortunately it's quite hard to predict. I see blogs come and go, there are people who blogs very often then suddenly lost the passion and move on to facebook or whatever friendster is left. Somehow blogs resemble diary.... without the element of absolute and total truthfulness. The motive of blogging is so that people will read. I somehow think the element of causing interest among readers has compensated the need to express something deep and personal, for example no one blogs about his/her worst and embarassing mistake, or blog about their sins and downfall. It's always about "Oh, today I'm feeling down, I have a lot of homework to do" or "Oh today is a sad day, my boss scolded me". Nothing about "Oh, today I curse my brother for talking bad about me to my dad, and now I hate my family" or "Oh today, I feel God's presence is no longer around, because ..........". It always about the surface with some icing and decoration and cam whoring, but nothing about the core of the matter, the basic, the main ingredient. It always "I'm going out with my friends today, I love it, we are going to watch movies...bla bla bla.." and nothing about "I'm going out with my friends cause I have a crush on ???, I think I love him"... you know what I mean. So what are the incentives to keep us going?

Harvester of Sorrow

Not able to sleep tonight, yes Nadal finally got defeated by Soderling but that is no incentive to hit the bed early. Honestly, I still mourn about ManUtd losing Champions League. This is a lone sorrow. I don't have a lot of ManUtd friends around, I find it easier to mix with Liverpool fans, but alas most of them are too arrogant for their own good hence I usually suffers alone and in silence. There is just no more sportsmanship anymore, everyone (especially Liverpool fans) have been living a life when they mock and laugh when people falls, they laugh and scorn you like a piece of dirty rag. What has happen to the time when we still can look the opponent in the eye and shake their hand? This actually tells me the time we Malaysian are living in kiasu environment, everyone is only thinking about themselves. No regards for others feeling but I am fortunate to know of some mature and true Liverpool fans that don't behave like a 5 year old. Also, on a more serious note, my mats shipment got delayed and I promise my customer that I will deliver tomorrow.... if I sleep now, I'll wake up tomorrow to the sound of my mobile ringing and terminator at the end of the line. We got to kill John Connor...... Also, I wonder why human can be so cancerous. They can spread lies like no other creature that God has created. Who knows the truth? Who sees the truth? And who can claim to be sinless let him be the first to judge. Let him be the first to condemn, let him be the first to be the hero. The rest of us are sinners, let us humble ourselves before the Lord and ask for His forgiveness. I was reading DA Carson, and he was talking about the phrase Blessed are the Meek for they will inherit the earth. A meek person will put God's will and people's needs before theirs. When being persecuted the first response is not to look for a response but to go before the Lord and commit to him all your burden and pain. And why does a meek person inherit the earth? Well, I'll leave it for you guys to read it yourself. So will God somehow makes my mat appear tomorrow? Nope, it's still in Guangzou. I don't understand, why do we still need air freight (DHL or FedEx) when we still can't get our shipment on time? DHL is dua hari Lewat and FexEx is no more No. 1 thanks to Nadal. So why bother?
Life can be lonely sometimes. Sometimes it's hard to make certain decision in life and sometimes it is easy to take someone for granted. Friends or life partners will never be perfect but it helps to pick up the phone and say "I love you and I care for you". How long do we still have? Kevin is already 30, most of us are approaching the twilight zone. Why not do something you want to do today? Will you get another chance on life?
Here are some photo for memories sake... or what is left of it. Enjoy


My three nephew - Jonathan, Ivern and Nicholas (from left to right)

My long good friend

Cameroon camp.

Michael and Imelda. Hope you guys are doing good.

My long lost friend.

children

While looking at these pictures below, I can't help but wonder why we constantly complain about the imperfection in our lives? Why do we yearn so much in lives when we see so much suffering in the world? What can we achieve and enjoy without feeling sad for them? Do we deserve any more? Does God loves us more? Does luck plays a factor? Or are we called to bless them?

how do you chew?

Okay, please remind me how.... you place the food in your mouth, then move your tongue to push the food to your right, just in between the upper and the lower teeth, then ....... i really cannot remember what to do already after that. This sucks!!! I really cannot chew, I don't know why.... is it because I lost my brain function to instruct my jaw to close or I don't have the chewing muscle anymore??? Disaster, I've lost nearly 3kg since last week. Feeding only on soft food.... not sashimi soft, but half boiled egg soft. I love half boiled egg, but when you have that for breakfast lunch and dinner, it feels like the world is coming to an end. Or you wish that the world would come to an end. Totally vanity. Wisdom tooth, you're an idiot. A total nightmare, unbelievable and unforgettable. Your existence became a suffering when you were a part of me, when we decided you have caused enough pain, you left, leaving us totally useless and double the agony. You leave with a painful note, saying "Screw you, serves you right for not wanting me" and I can hear the "LOL" at the end of the curse. Maybe it was a "ROFLMAO" Until when will you follow me? Trailing me everywhere I go, even if I hide, the wisdom tooth curse still finds me, lying on the floor helpless, this curse continues to mock me, and again I can hear the him laughing "Serves you right!!!"

Science

Cooking is science. It's altogether a complex interaction of chemical reactions, how heat changes the protein of a surface, how does air contribute to the shape, why does olive oil taste better and why doesn't avocado oil smoke at 100C . Instead of working as a chef to know how to mix herbs, just buy a science book that tells you the type of chemical that exist in each herbs. Do you have to be a cook or a food critic to know what kind of taste Basil leaves provide? Nope. How about rosemary? Nope. Or which part of beef that is most tender? Absolutely no brainer. Science can explain just about everything .... but there are certain things that science cannot explain. For example, hot water freezes faster than cold water when placed in a refrigerator. Why? Beats me. As smart as all the scientist around, no one can explain this phenomena. No one knows why. Isn't that simply amazing?